In my area in PA, they are saying we can get dumped on by a snowstorm. So far, there is barely an inch on the ground. Around 5:30 this morning, it was still snowing -it is now raining- and there was a good covering on the ground. This is around the time that schools must put the notice in for a delay or closing, so since it was snowing and the weathermen are calling for up to 10 inches of snow, most schools have closed.
As I lay in bed listening to the sounds of the boys coloring together, the quiet voices of the cartoon they are watching, I realize something. The boys are no longer being quiet. In fact, there is an outright argument going on. Yes, sometimes I am slow on the uptake. I listen to see if they can resolve their fight on their own and am dismayed to realize that I now needed to leave the nice, warm and cozy bed I've been dawdling getting out of. When you are tired, the last thing you want to do is crawl out of your bed.
The rising voices and tempers of the boys were loud enough for the neighbors to hear by now. Momma need to step in it seems. Just what I did not want to do. I wasn't paying attention to my own volume and tone as I yelled over the boys to be quiet. I don't know about you, but realizing that I am doing the same exact thing they are, and yelling at them for doing what I found myself doing, is hypocritical. I closed my eyes for a minute and desperately tried to reign myself in. "Patience, I need patience and to be calm," I told myself. I took a deep breath and calmly and gently told the boys to quiet down. The result was the same as it usually is: being ignored. I find that unless I yell to get their attention, they ignore me, talk over me, scream, fuss and cry. The thought alone makes my temper flare up. Deep breath again.
|Yellowstone Buffalo nursing her young calf|
|Mountains out West|
|Rocky Oregon Coastline|
|Oak Harbor Washington|
In walking through the forests, through the mountain valleys and along the coastlines, I can bask in God's glory. I am always more calm on vacations because nature calms my heart and soul. Being at home all day, I look to the clouds and trees for my feelings of calm. The picture of the cardinal from the beginning of this post was taken in my backyard. I try to find things that keep me calm and serene or I can blow my top and go through life like I'm chained to the back of a smoking bus and not enjoy anything. That is not the life that God wants us to have. He wants us to enjoy it. Joyfulness, kindness, love, compassion are only some of the good things that He wants for us.
You can start your day tired and you immediately have a choice. You can spend the day grumpy and even angry or you can choose to spend the day finding the joy in life. I think that a joyful life is much better than a grumpy, sour outlook. I have my grumpy days which always make my upset and full of regrets at bedtime. There is a sense of a wasted day.
I choose today, to count it as a blessing and enjoy my day with the boys. I choose to be serene and calm and to keep that calm. Today, I chose happiness instead of sadness, joy instead of frustration and anger. Today, I choose to be blessed by my boys' love for me. I choose to enjoy being their mom and even choose to enjoy the work that needs doing in the house. I can easily ruin the day by choosing to remain frustrated and angry at the boys' fighting and let my own emotions run out of control but that doesn't make sense now, does it? Why choose to spend the day upset when we can so easily choose to let my heart feel lighter and filled with God's love and all His mercy, grace and blessings?
|Isn't this a place of calm, of serenity?|